Tomorrow is Andy’s birthday, but I wanted to get this post up today since I don’t usually post on the weekends.
It’s hard to believe that this time last year, you were my boyfriend stationed at Fort Polk, Louisiana. Since then, you moved to Fort Knox, we got engaged in January, and were married in June. It’s been such a whirlwind, but an amazing one. Sometimes I still can’t believe you’re mine– I’ll glance over at you sitting beside me on the couch and think, “God answered my prayers.” I can’t believe I get to be yours forever!
This Army life has been tough at times, but it’s absolutely worth it. I love watching you achieve your dreams and stand beside you in your career. I’d follow you to the ends of the earth! I love how you are so determined that I can follow my dreams and succeed in my career as well.
This morning we joked about tomorrow being the start of your “mid-life crisis.” You said, “Who knows when I’ll die? This could be the middle of my life!” I laughed it off, but I wanted to cry because I can’t imagine a life without you. You’ve absolutely changed my life.
There’s so much more I’d like to say to you, but I can’t find the words. We’ll continue celebrating your birthday when you get home tonight.
I love you, I’ll be seeing you.
I used to think that when people fell in love, they just landed where they landed, and they had no choice in the matter afterwards. And maybe that’s true of beginnings, but it’s not true of this, now. I fell in love with him. But I don’t just stay with him by default as if there’s no one else available to me. I stay with him because I choose to, every day that I wake up, every day that we fight or lie to each other or disappoint each other. I choose him over and over again, and he chooses me.
-Allegiant by Veronica Roth